和惠宜（小和尚）一起看完 《入殓师》意义很不同，看得很安静，会想我走时也要这么美

                                                 零散的记忆让我想起很多关于过去，妈妈当过入殓师，老爷和奶奶的妆都是她画的，听说很美，记

                                                 忆中记得是在年三十奶奶走了，我提前就有预感，去医院时一点不怕，还和哥哥在大人不注意时又

                                                 进停尸房看了奶奶，有时还模糊是否真的去看了在记忆又飘忽到附中那特殊的地方（火葬场旁的学校）

                                                  经常看着黄昏的天空，这里应该是离天堂最近的地方吧，很美

                                                              看到电影那个火化的“看门人”说的那些关于死亡的话，是新的开始，是新的大门，他就是个

                                               看门人，所以就会对那些人说“路上走好，有机会再见”惠宜点点头，片子让我想到了日本另一个片子

                                              《下一站天国》一个通向另一个地方的中转站，而这里的工作人员会让你赛选你最美好的记忆，拍成电

                                                影，带着最后记忆其他都将忘记，带着电影票，人生的记忆哪些能取舍呢是留，还是走，留下的是没有

                                                记忆，或不能取舍的~

                                                                                                 

 

                                                                         

                                                                                                                                  

                                                                        

 

 
                             黄昏是我一天中视力最差的时候，一眼望去满街都是美女，高楼和街道也变幻了通常的形状，像在电影里……你就站在楼梯的拐角,带着某种清香的味道,有点湿乎乎的,奇怪的气息,擦身而过的时候,才知道你在哭.事情就在那时候发生了,我怎样才能让你明白我如何爱你?我默默忍受, 饮泣而眠?我高声喊叫,声嘶力竭?我对着镜子痛骂自己?我冲进你的办公室把你推倒在地?我上大学,我读博士,当一个作家?我为你自暴自弃,从此被人怜悯? 我走入精神病院,我爱你爱崩溃了?爱疯了?还是我在你窗下自然?明明,告诉我该怎么办?你是聪明的,灵巧的,伶牙俐齿的,愚不可及的,我心爱的,我的明明…… 

 

                                                                    马路的诗：一切白的东西和你相比都成了黑墨水而自惭形秽
                                                                              一切无知的鸟兽因为不能说出你的名字而绝望万分
                                                                                      一切路口的警察亮起绿灯让你顺利通行 
                                                                                    一切正确的指南针向我标示你存在的方位

             ……我想起有那么一天傍晚,有三楼的顶头,你睡着了,孩子一般,呼吸很轻,很安静,我看着你,肆无忌惮地看着你,靠近你,你呼出的每一口气息,我都贪婪地吸进肺叶……那是夏天,外面很安静,一切都很遥远,我就那么静表地沉醉于你的呼吸之间,心里想着这就是“同呼吸”吧。人是可以以二氧化碳为生的，只要有爱情。 

                                                                                                                                                     ————《恋爱的犀牛》                                                              

                                                                                                                               

                                                                                                                                 氧气

                                                                                                          对我笑吧，笑吧，就像你我初次见面， 
                                                                                                           对我说吧，说吧，即使誓言明天就变，
                                                                                                           享用我吧，现在，人生如此飘忽不定，
                                                                                                           想起我吧，将来，在你变老的那一年。

                                                                                                                    过去岁月都会过去， 
                                                                                                                    有你最后带我离去，
                                                                                                                    过去岁月总会过去， 
                                                                                                                      有你最后带我离去。

                                                                                                                   所有的光芒都向我涌来，
                                                                                                                  所有的氧气都被我吸光，
                                                                                                                  所有的物体都失去重量，
                                                                                                              我的爱情走到了所有路的尽头。

 

 

                                                                                      音乐响起，我的每个毛孔都张了起来，泪腺也张开了

 

 

 

                                                                           我的纯粹还在，只是要并行着平衡螺旋上升，我要的是永远，为了保持永远我只能这样

 

                                                                                纯粹到了极致，偏执，要平衡的拉回来，然后再开始更高的新的起点，反复反复